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On a rainy sunday

A walk down the park
do you remember how we used to laugh?
smiling seemed so easy then
as we had childhood memories in our heads
hearts joined, we danced in the moonlight
As two pieces of trash
we felt that our love would last
defining our innocent youth
we had yet to realize the ugly truth

What happened
where did you go
you left me standing
you said you wouldn't go..

So take a look in the mirror
A monster in disguise
torn apart you threw me away
It's the start of a rainy day..

As flowers arose, spring was near
and the sunlight shone brightly on the crystal sky
you were the bee and i the ladybird
never meant to be, though we tried
we fought for survival with love as our distance
do you miss our little world, a sign of true resistance?

You did me so much good
you kept me breathing
now breathing is a struggle
why did you vanish?

You treasured me deeply
buried in the sand it lays
a beating heart that's torn
as it on my sleave is worn
A million tears i could cry but nothing would matter now
you took your choice, life goes on
a million stars twinkle, water drips from an eye..

So take a look in the mirror
A monster in disguise
torn apart you threw me away
It's the end of a rainy day..

ignorance is bliss
ignorance is your new best friend..
ignorance is pain
ignorance is love
what's the difference of you and me?..   - You killed me. 

Black Butterfly

Every scar can be healed they say
look at her now, she's fading away
Red wavy hair with those oh so green eyes
Her life's like an unwanted fairy tale,
She's a complete chaos, sitting alone,
crying, trying, to forget the lies,
She's drenched in that little black dress
Her life is truly an unforgivable mess

leave this to bleed
leave this to bleed
Just leave it all to bleed..

Black butterfly without wings
It's time to fly away
Burn this town down
It's yours for the taking
You're beautiful.. (save me)

She sits in that cold dark corner
her soul terrified of the stronger
awaiting the day where her body will give up the fight
each morning, day, evening and night
as the wind houls and the babies scream
she's thinking of living her own dream
A walk along the beach, footprints in the sand
All she wanted was to be treated like something grande..

Could you take the pain AWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!? (oh please)
You're a monster in disguise (a freak)
my little sacrifise (kill me silently)
These precious things let them wash away (arrrrgh)
TAKE THE PAIN AWAÝ!

Black butterfly without wings
It's time to fly away
Burn this town down
It's yours for the taking
You're beautiful.. (save me)

Her mind has gone blank
she's speechless inside
trapped in a cage, and she's oh too wild
she cannot go free, run like a panter
her hope long lost, burried in the frost
it's the price to pay, she let it slip away
figuring out a way to die
drop dead from a bridge and hope to fly..

Could you please take me away?..
PLEASE!
my one way ticket to freedom. Im sorry..

Black butterfly without wings
It's time to fly away
Burn this town down
It's yours for the taking
You're beautiful.. (save me)

You're beautiful
Beautiful
Beautiful..
Listen to me!

Black butterfly without wings
It's time to fly away
Burn this town down
It's yours for the taking
You're beautiful.. (save me)

Save me..
Can somebody hear her calling?
Save me..
Why dont you save her?
Save me..
Save me..
SAVE HER

1 day to go.. and then like 365 more x]

Hvem er det lige du tror jeg er, en dværg, tro om, det Fille det her. 
Jeg er 17, frisk, fri og fræk, sikke dog et godt kort at træk', 
Une body a la francais NEJ nej .. kan ligeså godt vinke hej hej, 
tyk, kort, fed, hun er næppe hed, led? Nah hun er bare ked. 
En hjerne der lurer i det fjerne, gemmer på følelser, uhyggelige spøgelser. 
Tanker der flyver, people der lyver, en travl dag, fejres med flag. 

SÅ vi sku' tage at bage, en lækker kage, chokolade, til de sjove, de flove, de glade, 
men de lede, de må lide, don't think we don't like to bide, that foolish smartass side. 

Så de si'r måske alt bliver godt, sikke er flop, måske kan de bare ikke få den op, 
for er der no'en der si'r, de ik ka' li piger, oww.. what a fool, he aint that cool. 
Lektier, dates, fester, mates, homies, chicks, billige tricks, hvad er det vi vil? Det er ej et spil, 
reality rammer, vreden flammer, sæt dem bag tremmer, giv dem en lammer. 
If you can't follow them, fight them får jeg fortalt, tænk at det virkelig er så galt! 
Men i dag vi dette glemmer, i dag er det nemlig meget nemmere.

SÅ vi sku' tage at sige, verden ikke er lige, penge til de rige, de frie, 
men de fattige, de må lide, don't think we don't like to bide, that foolish smartass side. 

Smilet træder frem, fornemmelsen er lam, men folk smiler, hjertet hviler, 
jeg hilser, Mhm en frisk kold pilsner, en dejlig smag, en udholdelig dag, 
kagen med den dejlige duft, kan mærke den søde luft, kærligheden suser, han er sq lidt nuser, 
men tiden er knap, rap rap rap, vi er ænder, med de mange søde tænder, 
.. oh, sikke noget trist noget, desværre er tiden atter gået. 

SÅ vi sku' tage at glemme, den triste stemme, lyrik, mimik, til de kvik', de sick, 
men de lede, de må lide, don't think we don't like to bide, that foolish smartass side. 

Igen de snakker, filmen hakker, man skulle se at få pakket, det er sq tak'et, 
igen de kolde øjne ser, ler, men nu er der bare fler', ak jeg ber',
for folk vandrer rundt i flok, de kan slet ikke få nok, bange for at være ene, atter alene, 
den sene nat venter, det er her vi fra dybet henter, den nye dag, af samme smag, 
man var naiv, de tog et liv, man skulle bare tage at drikke sig stiv, 
men hvad hjælper det, familien er splittet, nu kan man synge med på hittet, 
”i must be emo, emo emo” whhhhhat get a grip girl, fortæl mig det er en demo, 
drikken er ond, smagen er rund, jeg sidder her igen, dog nu med en ven. 

SÅ vi sku' tage at huske, lære at fuske, luske, snuske, duske, for det kan vi alle, 
det er lamt, det er klamt, men vi gør det med magt, så meget man gerne vil have sagt, 
de lede, de må lide, don't think we don't like to bide, that foolish smartass side. 

I see you

Walking through a dream i see you.. 
I look up into the blue starry sky thinking of you not wandering why, 
the many beautiful twinkling stars reveal all my painful unhealed scars,
you make me laugh, you make me sing, you make me forget everything,
everything i should forget, the pain the sorrow, even the regret, 
my eyes they see an angel underneath, so baby come show me those teeth, 
don't be shy love, i know you don't want to act tough, 
between the lines i see a face, a face i remember for unlimited days, 
the face is crying, lying, dying, seeking company, seeking a soul, 
but babe i truly believe that deep inside your heart is made of gold, 
somewhere beneath the cold facade is a softer side 
it lies deep hidden for me to find and keep, 
'cus i believe that someday you will hear my voice for real
if not i know i am the one who's on the meal
i trust you in everything and one day we will win, a new life will truly begin,
we will show the world who is the boss, even though we have had a big loss
will you please forgive me dear and wait for a year
i am ready for this, it is not something i want to miss, 
i am dancing with tears in my eyes, trying to forget all those stupid lies, 
my past is a darkness deep in my soul, you are the one who makes me whole.

Love is what makes us live..

I have dreamed many dreams in my young days
discovered new places in too many ways
I have seen the shores of a southern land 
and built strange sand-castles in the sand 
but for you my love I kindly think 
without a word I just tend to blink 
shattered in my thoughts, you seem so near 
for with you by my side there is nothing to fear.. 

Will you take my hand and join me for a walk?
Will you sit beside me on a bench and talk?
Will you look upon the stars on a blue night sky? 
Will you teach me how to whisper a sweet long goodbye? 

I can show you the nature, the beauty in things
I can show you how a wonderful little bird sings
I can show you a passion within my soul 
I can show you that you are my secret goal 

You teach me to love, to live, to die
You teach me to give, to sigh, to cry 
You teach me to hunger for your touch
You teach me to be both gentle and rough

I long for a future, a family, a child
I long for adventures that tend to go wild
I long for you to be here by my side
I long for you to be sleeping with me in the night 

My boy, my man, my husband, my friend
this is nowhere close to the end 
with you I see a future, a reason to fight
at the end of the tunnel I finally see a light
So come close and stay in my arms at least 
because to me you are everything but a beast 
you are beautiful and sweet and calm and nice 
so next time please remember to think twice
'cus somewhere in this world sits a little girl 
praying for you to kill the nasty cruel world
she's in love, she's in pain and oh how she wishes 
that you'd be here every day, you whom she misses

..shattered in my thoughts, you seem so near 
for with you by my side there is nothing to fear.

Look beyond what you see

As I saw the sun rise over the blue tide
the silent noise of a wave crashed by
I found myself looking out across the sea
sitting in the dusty sand of a scandinavian beach
longing for something I just couldn't reach
The wind was dry, there were birds in the sky
screaming for food but they didn't move
I sat on a rock, it was wet and cold
all of these untold stories I should have been told 
'cus as I moved my head slightly and looked to the right 
I saw what might have been my reason to fight
a couple in the distant, a child by their side
reminded my of what my tears yet couldn't hide 
it was love, it was true and yet nothing I could do 
for my thoughts wandered soft to the feeling, the touch
there was something I missed, so gentle and sweet
the feeling of love, being loved, being, 
I felt my hands slowly crumble and curve into fists
did I really deserve to be treated like this?
All the pain and anger, burried my in sorrow, 
my cheeks wettened with tears of tomorrow
if I only had the one wish, to be, to have the one whom I miss
I would be gone by tomorrow to believe the truth
of love and passion and maybe a youth,
But water is water and between us it is, 
the most painful enemy I have wet to witness
so as my thoughts reveal the heartbroken girl
who only wanted a better world, 
the memories who no longer exist, will never ever be missed
for the future is better no matter what
and one day she will get what she had forgot
that love, the sweetness the touch of a man 
a true man in her heart whom would be with her here in the sand
ignorance is bliss she tells herself
as she closes her eyes and whisperes 
i love you, i wish you would be here..