Love, hate and faith

The hole blogging thing.

2011-07-27T08:15:00.000-07:00

This blog mainly consist of my poems i wrote last year. It was a tough time and i had to get things out my mind.

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On a rainy sunday

2010-10-31T12:32:00.001-07:00

A walk down the park
do you remember how we used to laugh?
smiling seemed so easy then
as we had childhood memories in our heads
hearts joined, we danced in the moonlight
As two pieces of trash
we felt that our love would last
defining our innocent youth
we had yet to realize the ugly truth

What happened
where did you go
you left me standing
you said you wouldn't go..

So take a look in the mirror
A monster in disguise
torn apart you threw me away
It's the start of a rainy day..

As flowers arose, spring was near
and the sunlight shone brightly on the crystal sky
you were the bee and i the ladybird
never meant to be, though we tried
we fought for survival with love as our distance
do you miss our little world, a sign of true resistance?

You did me so much good
you kept me breathing
now breathing is a struggle
why did you vanish?

You treasured me deeply
buried in the sand it lays
a beating heart that's torn
as it on my sleave is worn
A million tears i could cry but nothing would matter now
you took your choice, life goes on
a million stars twinkle, water drips from an eye..

So take a look in the mirror
A monster in disguise
torn apart you threw me away
It's the end of a rainy day..

ignorance is bliss
ignorance is your new best friend..
ignorance is pain
ignorance is love
what's the difference of you and me?.. - You killed me.

Black Butterfly

2010-08-30T03:17:00.001-07:00

Every scar can be healed they say
look at her now, she's fading away
Red wavy hair with those oh so green eyes
Her life's like an unwanted fairy tale,
She's a complete chaos, sitting alone,
crying, trying, to forget the lies,
She's drenched in that little black dress
Her life is truly an unforgivable mess

leave this to bleed
leave this to bleed
Just leave it all to bleed..

Black butterfly without wings
It's time to fly away
Burn this town down
It's yours for the taking
You're beautiful.. (save me)

She sits in that cold dark corner
her soul terrified of the stronger
awaiting the day where her body will give up the fight
each morning, day, evening and night
as the wind houls and the babies scream
she's thinking of living her own dream
A walk along the beach, footprints in the sand
All she wanted was to be treated like something grande..

Could you take the pain AWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!? (oh please)
You're a monster in disguise (a freak)
my little sacrifise (kill me silently)
These precious things let them wash away (arrrrgh)
TAKE THE PAIN AWAÝ!

Black butterfly without wings
It's time to fly away
Burn this town down
It's yours for the taking
You're beautiful.. (save me)

Her mind has gone blank
she's speechless inside
trapped in a cage, and she's oh too wild
she cannot go free, run like a panter
her hope long lost, burried in the frost
it's the price to pay, she let it slip away
figuring out a way to die
drop dead from a bridge and hope to fly..

Could you please take me away?..
PLEASE!
my one way ticket to freedom. Im sorry..

Black butterfly without wings
It's time to fly away
Burn this town down
It's yours for the taking
You're beautiful.. (save me)

You're beautiful
Beautiful
Beautiful..
Listen to me!

Black butterfly without wings
It's time to fly away
Burn this town down
It's yours for the taking
You're beautiful.. (save me)

Save me..
Can somebody hear her calling?
Save me..
Why dont you save her?
Save me..
Save me..
SAVE HER

1 day to go.. and then like 365 more x]

2010-08-20T01:53:00.001-07:00

Hvem er det lige du tror jeg er, en dværg, tro om, det Fille det her.
Jeg er 17, frisk, fri og fræk, sikke dog et godt kort at træk',
Une body a la francais NEJ nej .. kan ligeså godt vinke hej hej,
tyk, kort, fed, hun er næppe hed, led? Nah hun er bare ked.
En hjerne der lurer i det fjerne, gemmer på følelser, uhyggelige spøgelser.
Tanker der flyver, people der lyver, en travl dag, fejres med flag.

SÅ vi sku' tage at bage, en lækker kage, chokolade, til de sjove, de flove, de glade,
men de lede, de må lide, don't think we don't like to bide, that foolish smartass side.

Så de si'r måske alt bliver godt, sikke er flop, måske kan de bare ikke få den op,
for er der no'en der si'r, de ik ka' li piger, oww.. what a fool, he aint that cool.
Lektier, dates, fester, mates, homies, chicks, billige tricks, hvad er det vi vil? Det er ej et spil,
reality rammer, vreden flammer, sæt dem bag tremmer, giv dem en lammer.
If you can't follow them, fight them får jeg fortalt, tænk at det virkelig er så galt!
Men i dag vi dette glemmer, i dag er det nemlig meget nemmere.

SÅ vi sku' tage at sige, verden ikke er lige, penge til de rige, de frie,
men de fattige, de må lide, don't think we don't like to bide, that foolish smartass side.

Smilet træder frem, fornemmelsen er lam, men folk smiler, hjertet hviler,
jeg hilser, Mhm en frisk kold pilsner, en dejlig smag, en udholdelig dag,
kagen med den dejlige duft, kan mærke den søde luft, kærligheden suser, han er sq lidt nuser,
men tiden er knap, rap rap rap, vi er ænder, med de mange søde tænder,
.. oh, sikke noget trist noget, desværre er tiden atter gået.

SÅ vi sku' tage at glemme, den triste stemme, lyrik, mimik, til de kvik', de sick,
men de lede, de må lide, don't think we don't like to bide, that foolish smartass side.

Igen de snakker, filmen hakker, man skulle se at få pakket, det er sq tak'et,
igen de kolde øjne ser, ler, men nu er der bare fler', ak jeg ber',
for folk vandrer rundt i flok, de kan slet ikke få nok, bange for at være ene, atter alene,
den sene nat venter, det er her vi fra dybet henter, den nye dag, af samme smag,
man var naiv, de tog et liv, man skulle bare tage at drikke sig stiv,
men hvad hjælper det, familien er splittet, nu kan man synge med på hittet,
”i must be emo, emo emo” whhhhhat get a grip girl, fortæl mig det er en demo,
drikken er ond, smagen er rund, jeg sidder her igen, dog nu med en ven.

SÅ vi sku' tage at huske, lære at fuske, luske, snuske, duske, for det kan vi alle,
det er lamt, det er klamt, men vi gør det med magt, så meget man gerne vil have sagt,
de lede, de må lide, don't think we don't like to bide, that foolish smartass side.

I see you

2010-08-20T01:48:00.005-07:00

Walking through a dream i see you..
I look up into the blue starry sky thinking of you not wandering why,
the many beautiful twinkling stars reveal all my painful unhealed scars,
you make me laugh, you make me sing, you make me forget everything,
everything i should forget, the pain the sorrow, even the regret,
my eyes they see an angel underneath, so baby come show me those teeth,
don't be shy love, i know you don't want to act tough,
between the lines i see a face, a face i remember for unlimited days,
the face is crying, lying, dying, seeking company, seeking a soul,
but babe i truly believe that deep inside your heart is made of gold,
somewhere beneath the cold facade is a softer side
it lies deep hidden for me to find and keep,
'cus i believe that someday you will hear my voice for real
if not i know i am the one who's on the meal
i trust you in everything and one day we will win, a new life will truly begin,
we will show the world who is the boss, even though we have had a big loss
will you please forgive me dear and wait for a year
i am ready for this, it is not something i want to miss,
i am dancing with tears in my eyes, trying to forget all those stupid lies,
my past is a darkness deep in my soul, you are the one who makes me whole.

Love is what makes us live..

2010-08-20T01:44:00.003-07:00

I have dreamed many dreams in my young days
discovered new places in too many ways
I have seen the shores of a southern land
and built strange sand-castles in the sand
but for you my love I kindly think
without a word I just tend to blink
shattered in my thoughts, you seem so near
for with you by my side there is nothing to fear..

Will you take my hand and join me for a walk?
Will you sit beside me on a bench and talk?
Will you look upon the stars on a blue night sky?
Will you teach me how to whisper a sweet long goodbye?

I can show you the nature, the beauty in things
I can show you how a wonderful little bird sings
I can show you a passion within my soul
I can show you that you are my secret goal

You teach me to love, to live, to die
You teach me to give, to sigh, to cry
You teach me to hunger for your touch
You teach me to be both gentle and rough

I long for a future, a family, a child
I long for adventures that tend to go wild
I long for you to be here by my side
I long for you to be sleeping with me in the night

My boy, my man, my husband, my friend
this is nowhere close to the end
with you I see a future, a reason to fight
at the end of the tunnel I finally see a light
So come close and stay in my arms at least
because to me you are everything but a beast
you are beautiful and sweet and calm and nice
so next time please remember to think twice
'cus somewhere in this world sits a little girl
praying for you to kill the nasty cruel world
she's in love, she's in pain and oh how she wishes
that you'd be here every day, you whom she misses

..shattered in my thoughts, you seem so near
for with you by my side there is nothing to fear.

Look beyond what you see

2010-08-20T01:43:00.000-07:00

As I saw the sun rise over the blue tide
the silent noise of a wave crashed by
I found myself looking out across the sea
sitting in the dusty sand of a scandinavian beach
longing for something I just couldn't reach
The wind was dry, there were birds in the sky
screaming for food but they didn't move
I sat on a rock, it was wet and cold
all of these untold stories I should have been told
'cus as I moved my head slightly and looked to the right
I saw what might have been my reason to fight
a couple in the distant, a child by their side
reminded my of what my tears yet couldn't hide
it was love, it was true and yet nothing I could do
for my thoughts wandered soft to the feeling, the touch
there was something I missed, so gentle and sweet
the feeling of love, being loved, being,
I felt my hands slowly crumble and curve into fists
did I really deserve to be treated like this?
All the pain and anger, burried my in sorrow,
my cheeks wettened with tears of tomorrow
if I only had the one wish, to be, to have the one whom I miss
I would be gone by tomorrow to believe the truth
of love and passion and maybe a youth,
But water is water and between us it is,
the most painful enemy I have wet to witness
so as my thoughts reveal the heartbroken girl
who only wanted a better world,
the memories who no longer exist, will never ever be missed
for the future is better no matter what
and one day she will get what she had forgot
that love, the sweetness the touch of a man
a true man in her heart whom would be with her here in the sand
ignorance is bliss she tells herself
as she closes her eyes and whisperes
i love you, i wish you would be here..

What is love?

2010-08-20T01:40:00.003-07:00

What is love? Baby don't hurt me. - No more..
Do you really want?
Do you really want me?
Do you really want me dead?
Or alive to torture for my sins?
Heartbeat, i need a heartbeat, i need a..

What is love?
Love is a feeling
Love is joy
Love is a romance between a girl and a boy
Love is laughter
Love is sick
Love is definetly more than a dick
Love is a gift
Love is a smile
Love is terrible once in a while
Love is faith
Love is hate
Love is hugs between two mates
Love is digital
Love is classical
Love is sure said to be magical
Love is a song
Love is not only a word
Love is surely meant to be heard
Love is a wish
Love is not a law
Love is what we miss
Love is what we live for.

The Lost memory

2010-08-20T01:38:00.001-07:00

Who ever said life was easy?..

Remember the days where the sun was high in the sky,
the days where you didn't have to wish you could fly,
those days where you only had to smile and wave,
days where you did not always have to behave.

Like footsteps printed in the wet sand,
like a pirate, hunting, seeking for a new land,
the little body craving for love and joy,
like a baby and his brand new trashy toy.

So it grows up in the hands of a cruel man,
parents, who drive it round in a silly old van,
the bench feeling weak as the "mate" takes a quick sneak peek,
the schoolbooks wieght deciding the faith, definetly not feeling safe.

As the days grow colder, the face gets older,
those wrinkles revealing the truth, the battles of a tough youth,
a candle light had been lit, time for the neck to be bit,
vampires luring in the night, waiting for an oppurtunity to fight.

So it wanders out in the woods, fleeing from the hoods,
trying to find peace, feeling the sweat and the grease,
its head is a mess, it could not ask for less,
the helmet getting tighter, it has always been a true fighter.

So it lets the better mind win, a new story begin,
feeling buff and tough, seeking the better sides of love,
wanting a new job, revealing that gentile sob,
so as the tears shatter, it remembers that it doesnt matter..

Black Beast

2010-08-20T01:37:00.002-07:00

At the ticking of the clock the heartbeat comes to a sudden stop.
The body is drenched in the blood from the veins like wet black ink from an old scribbling pen,
as it meets the paper it leaves it's mark; dark, tall, lean.
A monster beneath that lovely face, the flesh, the scent, the body unknown,
does anyone even seem to notice of how much the word sorry has left in despair, the world truly is not fair,
The body is again all alone.
Always alone.
Alone.
A hole in the heart revealing every scar, every memory seems so far.
The cry of a baby in the ear rings, the lullaby of a mothers voice sings,
but darkness has come with shadow and pain, a witness to what there is left to gain.
Nothing it cries.
Over and over.
The body which slowly sinks as a captain and his wounded ship,
taking the memories back to a long forgotten school field trip
the love and joy that once was there is broken as noone seems to care,
of whom or which and when or why, even though it was worth a try.

Yellow Eyes

2010-08-20T01:37:00.000-07:00

It moves like a tiger kept in a cage,
trying to fight the vain and the rage,
a roar is descended, kept forbidden,
the body has always been kept hidden,
it's soul has no longer any gloom,
it hides in the lonely dark caged room,
the claws that once speared the enemies are broken,
no longer have they any purpose,
for it seeks the depth in the dark night sky,
as stars twinkle, it wonders why,
it's body moves firmly and slow,
those eyes which clearly seem visable now,
show hate and fear and troubled tears,
it's not had a good life for years,
as it cries out for help and bashes against the walls,
it realizes it is over and the body gently falls,
but it doesnt give up yet,
it wont let others forget,
it's able to stare out into the night,
as the eyes function as the only light,
green and yellow and oh so bright,
but it has forgotten how to fight,
there is no time for feeling sorry,
it creeps into a gentle sleep,
remebering what there was left to keep,
a roar in the night reveals it's cry
it is still wondering why..

...

2010-08-20T01:35:00.001-07:00

I feel so useless.
I will go to an endless sleep.
I am a mirror with no reflection.
I am a total mess.
I will die if not trying in my defeat.

Catching the moment

2010-08-20T01:34:00.003-07:00

My mind is blank.
It's like i've vanished, dissapeared, died.
People around me are crazy, mad.
The busses are driving within seconds of eachother. Noise.
The ground is dirty, filthy, a total mess.
My feet wobble. I cannot walk.
I feel pain in my stomach though i am not thirsty nor hungry.
Time is flying by like seaguls in the grey cloudy sky.
There are people everywhere though i feel lost.
The air is infected by fumes from the many cars.
I can barely breath.
The raindrops shatter on my dry coat.
I feel the tears escape my eye.
Was i going to die?
The thought of love enters my mind.
I shiver as the cold wind passes me by.
The churchbells ring and the high heels shatter.
Rage passes by as two cars intertwine and crash.
A bmx on the side.
I wish i could hide.
I'm alone in the dark alley. It's cold.
People stare at me. I flinch at the thought.
Am i to return home?
What home? - I have no home.

Black Panter

2010-08-20T01:34:00.001-07:00

Come eat me raw,
taste the sweetness from my blood and flesh,
stab my beating heart untill it stops,
take it,
keep it safe knowing that it to you belongs,
You want my soul?
Have it.
Free me from this evil, this unknown monster inside.
Those yellow cat eyes who in the night stare,
the claws who scratch, the blood swiftly flowing,
the sleek body waiting for its prey,
On the move,
feel the heat,
it launches with a speed,
the story is untold,
waiting for the moonlight to unfold,
a noise is given,
the silence creeps on,
midnight is over,
it's the break of dawn,
a monster is unleashed wanting to be reached.

Into the dark

2010-08-20T01:33:00.001-07:00

The candle light was lit
dust was spread in every corner of the window
the curtains were old, bleached white and dirty
there was no sound, nothing to be heard
the silence crept on into the night.
Outside the wind was screaming,
the wolves were hauling,
the moon shone on the dark night sky,
the stars twinkling as if to say goodbye,
rain drenched the window, soaked,
the lightning stroke high in the sky.
Inside the beasts were luring,
the yellow-green eyes waiting for their prey,
in the cold misty room the girl awaits her groom,
lonely, dark,
a curse was born,
creeping against the window the nails screached,
as red high blood streamed down the walls,
the room was no longer,
it was a field
struggling to battle, the flame rises high,
death gains victory as the speed of light is stroken,
on the floor lies the remains of the pale bones,
broken.

Unknown Adventure

2010-08-20T01:32:00.000-07:00

It took the hand and led the way,
between blue skies and green forests they passed by,
the sun was not shining brightly high,
the clouds had infected the once romantic sky,
the look on its face showed betrayal and misery,
as the people around gave a look of suspicion,
they crept deeper into the darkness,
the wind blew heavily as a hurricane,
it was freezing cold,
the trees sang as the scent came closer,
of rosmary and flowers and sweet perfume,
the soaking wet hair traced the contour of a body,
the movents grew nearer as the birds began to sing,
as the touch of the lips matched the others,
heat and fury rose across its face,
silence before the storm had approached,
eyes became clearer to the showed,
and it began saying these foreign words,
but the ears barely listened,
not much was to be heard deep within,
but as the sun sank and the evening sky arose,
its dream of being more than a man came closer to an end,
the black abyss drenched the skin with ink,
as hatred and fear came to a win,
the depth of true love was there to unfold,
this was a story to remain untold.

I aint no superstar

2010-08-20T01:30:00.003-07:00

i feel so useless,
i feel so helpless,
i feel so unloved,
i am so alone.

i feel so small,
i feel so cold,
i feel so unhappy
i am so homeless.

alone in the night we cry,
together, forever, we ask them why,
for someday will come and we shall die,
let's just at least give it a try?

i aint no superstar no..
i aint no moviestar,
i aint nothing that you want,
but i am stronger than you thought.

i feel so used,
i feel so hated,
i feel so much pain,
i am dying in vain.

alone in the night we cry,
together, forever, we ask them why,
for someday will come and we shall die,
let's just at least give it a try?

Monster

2010-08-20T01:25:00.001-07:00

Everytime i look at my phone your face runs through my undead veins,
my blood is flowing dark red, as the beating of my heart rushes to a sudden stop, it is not love for you that i feel, it never will be and it never has been.
You digust me, you stupid little human. How could you do something like this? You ruin my family and tear everything apart.
For your eyes that torture when you look at me, and the fake smile you put across your face each and every day, is like thousands of knives stabbing my chest.
Your voice which once showed a passion for joy is dead, gone, cannot be found. The replacement is merely just words of the devil, evilness luring, as the hand seeks death. Your soul is damaged, filled with anger, danger is near.
As hatred and loss creeps through the walls of a place once called home, blooddrops shatter on the floor. A look on the wall reviels a message untold, of dying in vain, loneliness.
It was your own fault, your choice, you not me.
As the night falls and the silence is broken, the howl of a wolf in the moonlight is shed.
The sound of a once beating heart is forever gone.

Mother

2010-08-20T01:24:00.000-07:00

Mother,
where are you my friend,
what has become of the tears,
are you even alive,
i do not remember us last talking.

Mother,
you and your lovely blue dress,
i see you crumble as your heels shatter,
take my shoulder,
i know deep inside you feel alone.

Mother,
as if a change in name would make things better,
where has the hope in life gone,
are you crying as i cry,
we are more alike than you think.

Mother,
you have blond hair like an angel
but i see fear in your eye,
do not be afraid,
today you are not going to die.

Mother,
think of the precious things in life,
do you see,
there is beauty around,
i will guide you.

Mother,
wipe those tears away,
do not give up just yet,
take my hand, be strong,
i will keep you safe in my heart.

Innocent little thing

2010-08-20T01:20:00.000-07:00

Bath me in roses,
drink me up whole,
bite my neck,
feel the warmth spread,
look into my eyes,
what do you see,
nothing but pure beauty.

so take a bite of the red apple,
for to you i am like a drug,
innocent and sweet.

Touch the body,
pull the hair,
feel my heavy breathing,
the rock hard skin,
inhale the scent,
velvety soft lips,
we go down as sinking ships.

gently, rough,
am i good enough..

just like poison,
on the verge of dying,
feel the nails,
a trace on the skin,
slowly moving closer,
we'll arrange our own little fight,
like hungry tigers in the night.

so take a bite of the red apple,
for to you i am like a drug,
innocent and sweet.

ooohh.. i am yours boy..
ooooh.. come eat me raw..
hunger, pain and emotion,
i am alive,
what are you waiting for..

so take a bite of the red apple,
for to you i am like a drug,
innocent and sweet.

In a heartbeat

2010-08-20T01:16:00.001-07:00

You twist and bend,
raging in the night,
you lure upon the prey,
awaiting for a fight.
You are my hurricane,
strong, mighty, fierce,
attacking me with power,
i've yet to witness.

For every look i skip a heartbeat,
deep thoughts as cold tears pass me by,
spoken words, smile for me,
my reason to live, remain.

Heartbeat stand still,
keep this vision clean,
hold it, save it,
for it is true,
a face of a man,
precious,
stab me in the heart,
release my soul,
my love is for you,
take it.

You are my guiding light,
the voice of an angel,
with eyes like diamonds,
your heart solid gold.
You grow like a flower,
every day is new,
as each leaf falls,
i think of you.

You are a beast in the dark,
as a tiger you hunt,
the scent creeps near,
hunger, lust,
a search for the warmth,
your beauty, your touch.

Heartbeat stand still,
keep this vision clean,
hold it, save it,
for it is true,
a face of a man,
precious,
stab me in the heart,
release my soul,
my love is for you,
take it.

my reason to live, remain.
my reason to die, remain.
my reason for breathing, remain.
for i will die in vain.

You drag my down,
you take me high,
mending my broken heart,
my love for you will never die.

One of them

2010-08-20T01:14:00.001-07:00

Crush the skull
for the brain is damaged
break the body
for it is weak
bury it on a december evening
in the shadow of a moonlight
hear the wolves howling
a night to remember
cold frosty sky
the earth crumbles
snow is alive
ghosts descend
memories are made
tears grow dry
silence.

Angel

2010-08-20T01:13:00.000-07:00

In under 48 hours my world came to stand still.
It split into 3; Love, Hate and faith.
It was like a deep black hole which grew bigger and darker,
making it become reality.
The anger fumed in every direction, raging, with dark filthy eyes. Eyes that could kill.
Innocent shadows lured in the dark, waiting for me, completly silent.
I was afraid, afraid of the unknown. What was not waiting for me in this darkness. I shivered at the thought.
Fear rose as cold tears dripped.
I sank deeper and deeper.
So deep where the ground cannot be reached with bare feet.
Confusion was created and hate was born.
You came and helped me out of this deep hole, pulled me up to the suface, let me see the light.
Only you, it had always been you, your mission.
You were created to do so.
You showed me the way, the right way.
Like an angel you were, a beautiful angel. An angel who in the night revealed it's innocence.
You, who could see i was something, something special. You took me into your arms, the warth of your touch spread.
You who held me tight and gently stole a forbidden kiss.
A lovely kiss, a perfect kiss.
Absorbed by the beem of light, my world dissapeared for a split second.
You must have brought me to heaven.
Heaven, a wondeful place, a safe place, a home.
Love blossomed and joy was born.
You, my beloved angel, who took my hand and showed me the way. You who played sweet music by my ears.
Oh which words you knew, pure, caring. I felt worth something.
Your eyes shined like crown juvels, diamonds hit by sunlight. You looked deeply into my eyes.
I was blinded, consumed by this beauty.
A beauty i never before had seen.
Long had this been a dream, a calm dream, the dream.
You made my dream come true. I closed my eyes, stayed in this dream.
Destiny had brought me here, something amazing was born, created.
Something which i could not speak of. Words would not be enough. I was home, safe. I belonged.
It was lovely, the heat fled through my cheeks.
You saved me, my angel.
I stayed with you, waited. You had stopped singing, you were listening. Listening to the rythm.
The rythm, the beating of a heart, my heart, your heart, our hearts.
Two hearts in the sky. Two souls became one.
I knew this was where i belonged.

Black Heart

2010-08-20T01:12:00.003-07:00

Fear and betrayel
a carousel ride
the touch of ice on rock hard skin
an angel of innocence
the devil reborn.

Careful now,
can you hear the voices?

Come black heart
eat my raw, eat me whole,
learn my lesson,
believe in faith
our time has come
stay with me.

A crushed skull in the graveyard lies
butterflies descend
long lost one way ticket home
a fight for a life
revenge approaches.

Endless pain,
Together we die in vain..

Come black heart
eat my raw, eat me whole,
learn my lesson,
believe in faith
our time has come
stay with me.

Glory is defeated
a haunting ghost
smiles fade
join me in the shadow
no sunlight to see.

Do you follow?..
Do you want this?
Do you need us?
Erase my mind.. oooh
Paranoia!!

Strong but yet weak,
Together we forever sleep..

Dreams shatter
a glimse in the eye
heart of gold melting
a twist down the spine
zombie madness.

Come black heart
Eat my raw, eat me whole,
Learn my lesson,
Believe in faith
Our time has come
Stay with me.

Falling.. Falling deep..
Open your eyes love,
see our future vanish
falling.. ooooh ..
heartbeat gone
a broken silence
oooh.. oooh ..
hush now.

Black heart..
Stay with me..

A new Beginning

2010-08-20T01:11:00.001-07:00

Time stands still
Leaves swiftly falling
Day turns to night
Fire into dust
Child gently sobbing
In the corner of a room
Mirror breaks
A silent growl reborn
Coffee pot is leaking
New scents to define
Front door is breaking
Tears in an eye
It's a new beginning
Time to fly

2010-08-19T23:45:00.001-07:00

Hiya so i've had like a REALLY long break away from this blog due to some changes in my life. These changes have resulted in me writing loads of poems (danish and english). I will post them soon enough (:
Anyway it's NICE to be back!! Hope everyone is okay!
- Fille xD

Heart of a Lion ..

2010-02-05T04:16:00.000-08:00

Recently i started to listen to some of Kid Cudi's music, and i must say, although this isn't the best music, i do enjoy listening to it. His lyrics are brilliant, with focus on his personal problemes. When I listen to "Heart of a Lion" or "Man on the Moon" I can draw connections between my life, and his description of his personal problemes.
Although his problemes mostly are based on drugs, my problems are based on past, where i've suffered mentally and psyically through many sequences.
I would recommend you listening to his music!
Give it a thought.. and focus on the fabulous lyrics.

Hide and Seek

2010-02-05T03:34:00.000-08:00

Don't we all just love those mad-sickning days? Yes, i do mean those days when you want to burry your head in the ground and hide, vanish out of thin air!
When bad times struggle, we seek company from our friends, our family, the beloved ones who we trust. But why is it, when you are in need of help, people let you down?! I mean, seriously, whenever I need someone to talk to, they tend to flee! Now why is this? Are they scared? Is it me? All my emotions are in a mess, the depression of being lonely, keeps pressuring my head to the maximum, to have that thought, that maybe, maybe it IS me, that's something is wrong with?
The sickening sound of an alarm clock, always ticking in my head; Tick Tock Tick Tock!! Arrrgh, is madening! If just i could escape from this!
Although i cannot.. The music keeps playing, the clock ticking, and people stay the same. It's sad, really.. But you cannot change the way others act. You cannot make choices for them. You can only control your own actions. Life is life, destiny is destiny.. you just gotta have faith and believe that somehow, somewhere, there will be hope!

2010-02-04T12:04:00.000-08:00

Heey! So i'm this lucky owner of a pair of these Dr Martens (Classics - 1460z - Purple Shimmer £64.99). Got them online though, for less than half the oringinal prize! KATJING! Sometimes you gotta love amazon.co.uk <3
I do have a problem though /: Although they are gorgeous (oh and i have another pair in Blue Shimmer) i'm struggling with outfits to suit them.
So I was wondering if you may have any ideas, clothes-wise, to pair my lovely new Doc's with?
P.S. - Im not a skinny girl, and neither tall.

“It should be already known to me”

2010-02-04T11:22:00.000-08:00

Love. Hunger. Rejection. Pain. Denial. We all know the feelings. The feeling of falling in love, wanting this person so much, that we almost starve ourselves to get what we want. The feeling of finally finding this loved person, getting rejected, feeling the pain of not having what we wanted, the rejection filling our souls with hate, sorrow, a black hole.Finally denying the fact that we ever felt this way about something, someone. The black hole living on until the day we find that other one, the one that may look like the someone, but again finding more pain, rejection once again. The black hole living on until the day we accept our destiny.

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2010-02-04T10:41:00.001-08:00

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2010-02-04T10:32:00.000-08:00

På under 48 timer gik min verden i stå, og delte sig i 3; Love, Hate and Faith.
Det var som et sort hul der åbnede sig gevaldigt, og drastisk blev til virkelighed.

Vreden stormede ud til alle sider, rasende, med mørke øjne. Øjne der kunne dræbe.
Uskyldige skikkelser luskede i mørket, ventede på mig, tavst.
Jeg var bange, bange for det ukendte. Hvad der ikke ventede mig i dette mørke.
Jeg trak mig længere ned, ned, ned der hvor man ikke kan bunde.
Forvirring var skabt, og had blev født.
Du kom og hentede mig op fra mørkets dyb, trak mig op til overfladen, lod mig se lyset.
Kun dig, det havde altid været dig, din mission, du var skabt til det.
Du viste mig vej, du var som en engel, en smuk engel. En engel der i mørket udfoldede sin uskyldighed.
Du, som kunne se jeg var noget, noget specielt. Du som omfavnede mig, varmen der spredtes. Du som tog mig i dine arme og plantede et kys. Et drømmende kys, et dejligt kys.
Absorberet af lysets stråler, forsvandt min verden for et split sekund.
Du måtte have taget mig med til himlen. Himlen, et dejligt sted, et trygt sted, et hjem.
Kærligheden blomstrede og glæde blev født.

Du, min elskede engel, som tog min hånd og viste mig vej. Den rette vej, vejen.
Du som spillede sød musik ved mine ører. Aldrig havde jeg hørt så dejlige lyde.

Sikke ord du kunne, det var dejligt, rart. Jeg følte mig special.

Dine øjne skinnede som guldjuveler, solens diamanter. Du kiggede mig dybt ind i øjnene.
Jeg var blændet, opslugt af skønheden. En vis skønhed jeg ikke før havde set.

Længe havde dette været en drøm, en rar drøm, drømmen.
Du gjorde min drøm til virkelighed. Jeg lukkede øjnene, forblev i denne drøm.

Skæbnen førte mig hertil, noget fantastisk blev født.

Noget fantastisk jeg ikke kunne sætte ord på. Jeg var hjemme, tryg.
Det var så dejligt, så varmt. Du reddede mig, min engel.
Jeg blev hos dig, ventede. Du sang ikke mere, du lyttede. Du lyttede til rytmen.

Rytmen, hjertebanken, mit hjerte, dit hjerte, vores hjerter.
To hjerter i himlen. To sjæle blev til en. Jeg vidste det var her jeg hørte til!